Alhamdulillah

*I used to love you with all my heart, but now I tell myself I'm done. And then I look at you and tell myself I'm lying*

Hi,so technically this post gonna be like maya-syahdu-ing-moment.Feels free to press the [X] button if you didn't feels like want to read a so-sad-lah-sangat-ceritanya.

Anyway,let me call this guys 'sob sob'.Adilla call this 'sob sob',USHER,Aqilla and Aleena call him ABG RIMAU.1st,Adilla call him that because his skin colours.*He's aren't that black ya know.Aqilla and Aleena call him ABG RIMAU because he's so so arrogant,by the way he's looks lah.Mana ada dia sombong.Ish.Hahaha.Okay so,Sebenarnya,maya dgn 'sob sob' ni dah pernah jadi.Well,you guys know what it's mean by "Jadi" aite?Well,we were an item back then.But i keep it secret.Why?Let me and 'sob sob' be the only human knows why.It's been 2months since i know 'sob sob'.By that time,He's was everything to me.He was,everything,he was my first priority.Yeah, yeah i know,i shouldn't let him be my 1st priority when i'm his last.But that's not the point because to me he was perfect.I really like him.I totally falling in love with him.Even S pun kalah.

He's first asked me for my phone number.I didn't give him the 1st time he ask.I said "nanti lah" sooooo manyyyyy timeeeee.He keep pushing meeeee.Soooo i give itt.Then,He started to text me 1July2010.We text,i feels soooo happy.The 1st day we text he already calls me "Sayang".See,he's so brave.Omg, we text for like 2month.He keep asking me,"Bila nak jumpa kan?".I gave him so manyyyyyy excuses.I don't know.I feels so scared.Okay,mmg tipu lah kalau maya kata maya taknak jumpa dia.Mmg nak sangat jumpa dia,date dgn dia.Tapi,maya takut.Maya pun taktau pasal apa maya nak takut.tapi mmg maya takut.So maya pun tak jumpe dia sepanjang 2bulan tu.Before our 2months anyvaseries*, we fight.Taktau sebab apa bila dah nak dkat 2bulan tu,'sob sob' buat hal.Dia text kata lupakan dia.Pastu maya menangis.Then maya rep,"okay, kalau tu yang you nak,i takboleh nak buat apa.Tapi igt satu bende jea,I sayang you.Bye takecare".Then he said he's sorry for saying that,then bla-bla-bla.Tpi lepas tu takdga apa apa dah dari dia.Kiteorg terus senyap.Dari situ maya tahu dia dah DONE dgn maya.Haih,kalau ikut hati mmg sedih.Yea lah,maya penah text dgn dia sampai pukul 4pagi kot.Takpenah maya buat dgn org lain. maya text laki sampai pukul 4pagi.Tapi for him,apalah sangat 4pagi.Tapi,dia buat maya macam ni.Lepas dia dgn maya takde pape,maya penah try nak benci dia,tapi mmg takboleh kot.Taktau nape.Mmg takboleh.Yea lah,He's the best memories that happened in my life kan?

Now, when I receive a text or anything else, I still hope it's from you. Hmm,I miss how happy i was with you.Sekarang mmg happy,tapi bila dgn 'sob sob' lain happy dia.Happy dgn 'sob sob' lagi lah lagi.Everytime maya buka Facebook jea,mesti check profile dia, to see if someone else has stolen his heart yet.Main takut lagi kalau ada.Nak buat macam mana takde jodoh kan?Hmm.tapi maya nak try mintak maaf kat dia lah bila maya online next time.Amacam?Haaa.Dah dah lah kot membebel rasanya.K,bye.Thanks for reading my acah-acah-love-life.Till then readers yang konon konon ada.Bye~

This post special for 'sob sob'~

We don't talk anymore, but I'll never ever forget the times we had.And I will never regret you or say that I wish I'd never met you. Because at that time, you were exactly what I needed.I know i will never have you again, but I still keep loving you, and it kills me inside knowing that.Just so you know,im jealous of the people who get to see you everyday :(.I pretend that i don't care, but it makes me miss you more.Love, Maya

*I know I'm better off without him, but I fucking miss it.